Overthinking, Over analysing.

So here I am, 10 to 9 in the morning, listening to System of a Down on full blast in my underwear. My curtains are closed because I can't tolerate the intensity of the heat and the discomfort it brings. Not to mention the sweating. I swear I'm having more showers than I am meals at the moment. At least Winter will soon be here.

There's not really a special occasion for this blog, other than to just talk. Talk and talk to something. Ideally "blogger.com" would turn into "real person", but you can't get everything you want.

So, here I sit and here I talk. Well, type. Talk, type, it's all the same if you're a robot, which is essentially what I've become. I wake up, I go on the computer briefly, get ready for work, go to work for what is usually 9 hours. Come home, go on the computer, maybe the 360, invite friends over. Socialise (badly). Then go to sleep, repeat.

Trying to get out more. It's fun, it costs £10 a pop generally, so eats up my money like a fucking Hooker and only lasts a few hours. I just want to meet new people. New girls. As any girl who knows me now, I have no chance with. In fact, to say I have any chance with any girl is a leap of faith which I'm not sure I want to take. Stay optimistic, I'm telling myself. "I'll find someone who says that they love me and actually mean it, not leave me and find someone else in a week." but it's hard to find hope in a somewhat hopeless affair.

Another thing that gets me down is exam results. Whilst I care and am genuinely happy for my friends, I kinda wish I had of done better when I was in high school. When I think about exam results, I think of High School. Which brings a lot of regrets. 5 years of basically fucking about and thinking life was a joke. At least I'm rectifying it with college I guess.

I have more to say, but no time to say it in. I need to be on a checkout at work in exactly 25 minutes.

Comments are welcome to all that read this. Enjoy your day.