Tuesday, 27 December 2011
Saturday, 8 October 2011
Religion, Faith and The Bible...
Well, this is going to be possibly the longest and most difficult blog I've ever written. So let me start off by saying that the reason I'm writing this isn't to try and destroy faith, or enforce it, but to share my personal views on the subject, along with sourcing of my quotes, attempted reasoning behind my opinions and some of my personal favourite quotes regarding religion (from songs, authors, entertainers, philosophers, priests etc...)
I have religious friends, and I have atheist friends. All of them are good people in my books, and none of them I will name (unless I have their permission, of course).
Firstly, I'd like to establish the level of my religiousness, and quote Richard Dawkin's "Spectrum of theistic probability" as a guide:
Looking at that, I'd like to point out that I'm of the opinion that number one, and number seven are of sheer ignorance. There is no way of knowing with complete certainty that God is, or is not real. And for that reason, I would hold myself as a level 6.
Oh, and one more thing. I've been Christened. I went to Sunday school. I used to believe in God. HOWEVER, I'm to this day not 100% certain on my mother's religion, and I know I was only christened because my grandmother forced it. I also used to have to pray in school and sing hymns. I guess religion was enforced on me more than I realised before writing this, but never at home. I had the option to decide for myself, and because of that, I think I chose atheism over theism because it seemed more probable. At least to me.
For anyone who's not read "The God Delusion" by Richard Dawkins, whether you're religious or otherwise, I would strongly recommend reading it. I will admit though, Richard Dawkins is VERY passionate about his beliefs, to the point of being somewhat intrusive, offensive and insensitive to other people's beliefs. This in no way differs to a lot of famous religious activists, but it stands out a lot more due to Dawkins being one of two (that I know of) anti-religious activists.
The problem, of course, with anti-religious activists is that there is a negative repercussion of trying to enforce atheism onto theist believers, and that is the fact that not all religious people are as bad as they can be made out to be. My Grandmother, for example, is a christian. She's been one her entire life, most likely due to her parents being religious. Now the thing with her is that she causes no harm, and she tries to live her life with no judgement on people, with no pre-meditated anger and no quoting of the bible. She sees it as a way of believing that she was bought into the world to do good, and so she does. But without her faith, she would still be that same good person, but she wouldn't be as happy. Faith gives happiness to those who need it; it's a way to overcome the fear of death. At least in my opinion. That's why you see so many people seeking miracle cures for cancer, or turning to god when they've been diagnosed with a terminal illness.
Religion is a wonderful thing to people who need it. Personally, I find it quite satisfying to think that after my death, there is nothing. Literally nothing at all. How do I find it satisfying? Because after I die, I won't be able to feel upset by it; bored by it; scared of it, will I? I will simply cease to be. My consciousness will dissolve into nothingness and my body will disintegrate and eventually be as non-existent as my consciousness.
One of the arguments that religion, and the bible came into play is that it's an AMAZING way to control the masses. I mean, come on; it's too much. To quote George Carlin:
Now, something George Carlin DIDN'T touch on, which I think he could have done, was that if you DO follow this list of ten things, and you stick by it, you'll go to Heaven. The happiest place imaginable, where you can re-unite yourself with all the people you love and stick by them for all of eternity (I've just thought... are there relationships in heaven? Surely there must be? You can still fall in love, right? 'cos relationships end, you know. They come and go all the time. Heaven just sounds like a more permanent life. I don't think I'd like that, now I think about it. Seriously.). So given the choice, 2000 years ago when there was no education system, no libraries, no internet and no method of effectively gathering information and the word of the government was all you had. If they told you something like that, then threatened that you didn't believe it you would be killed, what would you do? Seriously. What would you do? I know what I'd do. I'd fucking believe it. Or at least pretend to, and teach my kids to actually believe it from fear of them going to hell.
But again, the heaven concept is nice. It's lovely. But think about it. I mean *really* think about it. Would you want that? I mean sure, it's DEFINITELY better than that hell place, but I don't know. I think I'd get pretty bored. Go insane. Want something else to do... I don't know, can I choose "neither", if both are real? :/
One thing that does really bother me about religion, is that it seems to enforce prejudice on good people. One particular example of this is people of homosexuality. The Catholic church preaches that homosexuality is a sin, and will lead people to (deservedly, apparently) go to Hell. Does this not upset you? I mean, really, really upset you? It gets to me more than anything else about religion. It's unfair, unfounded and in my personal opinion, moreso an evil than homosexuality itself. Stephen Fry comes to mind. This is a man who is incomprehensibly good, and has bought only joy to my life. He's a (as I understand it) "non practicing homosexual". He says that it's hard for him to hear that "over a billion" people are taught that he is "guilty of a moral evil" simply by "fulfilling [his] sexual destiny as [he] see[s] it", as he feels he is "filled with love". This part of the speech really got to me.
Here's Stephen's speech on religion, which has left a lasting impression on me:
Anyway, moving on from being anti-religious for a moment.
Religion is also a force for good in this world. There are many people, working on their religious beliefs as a very inspiring way of helping other people. Look at Mother Teresa, look at the religious people helping the homeless, look at the religious people who raise money for starving children, for people dying of terminal illnesses... I could go on. These are GOOD people, and they do so in belief that God wants us all to be good people. And it's a horrible shame that these people are being persecuted by anti-religious rallies, such as those who support Richard Dawkins, or Sam Harris. It's horrible. Everyone one this planet has every right to believe what they wish to believe, I respect that and by no means would I want to take that away from them. I only ask that they try to restrain their premeditated disposition towards other religions, or homosexuality.
The real shame lies not in Christianity, but more the Muslim faith. 9/11. You know what I'm getting at. A VERY select few Muslim EXTREMISTS committed a heinous crime. A truly (for lack of a better word) EVIL act. And what happened? A war. A full blown war happened. countless more people died as a result. But that wasn't the real tragedy; racism has now become a real problem in Christian countries, and I have to say England particularly (as I obviously have the most experience with it here). People are scared of Muslims now, not extremists. Muslims. And it's down to the media. The Sun, the Star, The Mail... They fear monger. I need only mention the EDL and "Muslamic Ray Guns". It's disgusting. It makes me feel truly ashamed to live in this country.
Another thing that bothers me, is that there are so many different faiths and all of them detest each other. Why? It makes no sense to me. They all follow similar guidelines (do good things, get rewarded, do bad things, get punished). So why all the hate? Why not believe in your own belief system and then just follow it? I mean come on... It's hypocritical. It's stupid and it's just plain not nice.
"Do not kill, do not rape, do not steal, these are principles which every man of every faith can embrace. " - The Boondock Saints
One quote which has *really* put things into perspective for me, was a quote from someone I've recently been talking to quite a lot (I won't say her name, I'm sure she'd be okay with it, but I'd want to check and she's asleep. Hopefully she'll know who she is if/when she reads this). She's a Catholic. And I remember a few months ago I was texting her about something to do with her religion. I believe it was in regards to premarital sex and the use of contraception. She pointed out that just because her church is for/against something, doesn't mean she is too. She pointed out that people have their own beliefs and don't just blindly follow the word of the church to which they attend. - This really made me think long and hard about my own predispositions. Not ALL Catholics are against gay rights, not ALL Christians would commit genocide (Ref: Hitler was a Christian), not ALL Muslims would kill thousands of people, and hate western society, not ALL Atheists (And yes, Atheism is somewhat ironically classed as a religion) would see the undoing of every other religion. There is personal choice in all religions. That is why I will not purposefully work to destroy someone's faith.
I have so much to say on the matter, so much to comment on, so many quotes to post and so many opinions to voice, but if I'm being completely honest, I don't know how to structure it, where to start and where to end. So what I want to do is post this as a kind of introduction. I want to get people asking for my opinion and ask me questions. I want to write another blog regarding this and try and express myself openly and honestly.
So please, post any questions you have for me here, and when I get enough, I'll post a new blog.
This is something I'm really interested in talking about, as I want to learn a lot as well as express myself too. So please, post something?
Thanks for reading.
I have religious friends, and I have atheist friends. All of them are good people in my books, and none of them I will name (unless I have their permission, of course).
Firstly, I'd like to establish the level of my religiousness, and quote Richard Dawkin's "Spectrum of theistic probability" as a guide:
- Strong theist. 100 per cent probability of God. In the words of C.G. Jung: "I do not believe, I know."
- De facto theist. Very high probability but short of 100 per cent. "I don't know for certain, but I strongly believe in God and live my life on the assumption that he is there."
- Leaning towards theism. Higher than 50 per cent but not very high. "I am very uncertain, but I am inclined to believe in God."
- Completely impartial. Exactly 50 per cent. "God's existence and non-existence are exactly equiprobable."
- Leaning towards atheism. Lower than 50 per cent but not very low. "I do not know whether God exists but I'm inclined to be skeptical."
- De facto atheist. Very low probability, but short of zero. "I don't know for certain but I think God is very improbable, and I live my life on the assumption that he is not there."
- Strong atheist. "I know there is no God, with the same conviction as Jung knows there is one."
Looking at that, I'd like to point out that I'm of the opinion that number one, and number seven are of sheer ignorance. There is no way of knowing with complete certainty that God is, or is not real. And for that reason, I would hold myself as a level 6.
Oh, and one more thing. I've been Christened. I went to Sunday school. I used to believe in God. HOWEVER, I'm to this day not 100% certain on my mother's religion, and I know I was only christened because my grandmother forced it. I also used to have to pray in school and sing hymns. I guess religion was enforced on me more than I realised before writing this, but never at home. I had the option to decide for myself, and because of that, I think I chose atheism over theism because it seemed more probable. At least to me.
For anyone who's not read "The God Delusion" by Richard Dawkins, whether you're religious or otherwise, I would strongly recommend reading it. I will admit though, Richard Dawkins is VERY passionate about his beliefs, to the point of being somewhat intrusive, offensive and insensitive to other people's beliefs. This in no way differs to a lot of famous religious activists, but it stands out a lot more due to Dawkins being one of two (that I know of) anti-religious activists.
The problem, of course, with anti-religious activists is that there is a negative repercussion of trying to enforce atheism onto theist believers, and that is the fact that not all religious people are as bad as they can be made out to be. My Grandmother, for example, is a christian. She's been one her entire life, most likely due to her parents being religious. Now the thing with her is that she causes no harm, and she tries to live her life with no judgement on people, with no pre-meditated anger and no quoting of the bible. She sees it as a way of believing that she was bought into the world to do good, and so she does. But without her faith, she would still be that same good person, but she wouldn't be as happy. Faith gives happiness to those who need it; it's a way to overcome the fear of death. At least in my opinion. That's why you see so many people seeking miracle cures for cancer, or turning to god when they've been diagnosed with a terminal illness.
Religion is a wonderful thing to people who need it. Personally, I find it quite satisfying to think that after my death, there is nothing. Literally nothing at all. How do I find it satisfying? Because after I die, I won't be able to feel upset by it; bored by it; scared of it, will I? I will simply cease to be. My consciousness will dissolve into nothingness and my body will disintegrate and eventually be as non-existent as my consciousness.
One of the arguments that religion, and the bible came into play is that it's an AMAZING way to control the masses. I mean, come on; it's too much. To quote George Carlin:
"Religion has actually convinced people that there's an invisible man living in the sky who watches everything you do, every minute of every day. And the invisible man has a special list of ten things he does not want you to do. And if you do any of these ten things, he has a special place, full of fire and smoke and burning and torture and anguish, where he will send you to live and suffer and burn and choke and scream and cry forever and ever 'til the end of time!"
Now, something George Carlin DIDN'T touch on, which I think he could have done, was that if you DO follow this list of ten things, and you stick by it, you'll go to Heaven. The happiest place imaginable, where you can re-unite yourself with all the people you love and stick by them for all of eternity (I've just thought... are there relationships in heaven? Surely there must be? You can still fall in love, right? 'cos relationships end, you know. They come and go all the time. Heaven just sounds like a more permanent life. I don't think I'd like that, now I think about it. Seriously.). So given the choice, 2000 years ago when there was no education system, no libraries, no internet and no method of effectively gathering information and the word of the government was all you had. If they told you something like that, then threatened that you didn't believe it you would be killed, what would you do? Seriously. What would you do? I know what I'd do. I'd fucking believe it. Or at least pretend to, and teach my kids to actually believe it from fear of them going to hell.
But again, the heaven concept is nice. It's lovely. But think about it. I mean *really* think about it. Would you want that? I mean sure, it's DEFINITELY better than that hell place, but I don't know. I think I'd get pretty bored. Go insane. Want something else to do... I don't know, can I choose "neither", if both are real? :/
One thing that does really bother me about religion, is that it seems to enforce prejudice on good people. One particular example of this is people of homosexuality. The Catholic church preaches that homosexuality is a sin, and will lead people to (deservedly, apparently) go to Hell. Does this not upset you? I mean, really, really upset you? It gets to me more than anything else about religion. It's unfair, unfounded and in my personal opinion, moreso an evil than homosexuality itself. Stephen Fry comes to mind. This is a man who is incomprehensibly good, and has bought only joy to my life. He's a (as I understand it) "non practicing homosexual". He says that it's hard for him to hear that "over a billion" people are taught that he is "guilty of a moral evil" simply by "fulfilling [his] sexual destiny as [he] see[s] it", as he feels he is "filled with love". This part of the speech really got to me.
Here's Stephen's speech on religion, which has left a lasting impression on me:
Anyway, moving on from being anti-religious for a moment.
Religion is also a force for good in this world. There are many people, working on their religious beliefs as a very inspiring way of helping other people. Look at Mother Teresa, look at the religious people helping the homeless, look at the religious people who raise money for starving children, for people dying of terminal illnesses... I could go on. These are GOOD people, and they do so in belief that God wants us all to be good people. And it's a horrible shame that these people are being persecuted by anti-religious rallies, such as those who support Richard Dawkins, or Sam Harris. It's horrible. Everyone one this planet has every right to believe what they wish to believe, I respect that and by no means would I want to take that away from them. I only ask that they try to restrain their premeditated disposition towards other religions, or homosexuality.
The real shame lies not in Christianity, but more the Muslim faith. 9/11. You know what I'm getting at. A VERY select few Muslim EXTREMISTS committed a heinous crime. A truly (for lack of a better word) EVIL act. And what happened? A war. A full blown war happened. countless more people died as a result. But that wasn't the real tragedy; racism has now become a real problem in Christian countries, and I have to say England particularly (as I obviously have the most experience with it here). People are scared of Muslims now, not extremists. Muslims. And it's down to the media. The Sun, the Star, The Mail... They fear monger. I need only mention the EDL and "Muslamic Ray Guns". It's disgusting. It makes me feel truly ashamed to live in this country.
Another thing that bothers me, is that there are so many different faiths and all of them detest each other. Why? It makes no sense to me. They all follow similar guidelines (do good things, get rewarded, do bad things, get punished). So why all the hate? Why not believe in your own belief system and then just follow it? I mean come on... It's hypocritical. It's stupid and it's just plain not nice.
"Do not kill, do not rape, do not steal, these are principles which every man of every faith can embrace. " - The Boondock Saints
Again, religious readers: I am not trying to take your faith away from it, I only aim to make you understand that religions all have more in common than you might think. Try to be more understanding of other religions and perhaps in the process, you'll be setting an even better example for your own. You're a good person; act like one.
One quote which has *really* put things into perspective for me, was a quote from someone I've recently been talking to quite a lot (I won't say her name, I'm sure she'd be okay with it, but I'd want to check and she's asleep. Hopefully she'll know who she is if/when she reads this). She's a Catholic. And I remember a few months ago I was texting her about something to do with her religion. I believe it was in regards to premarital sex and the use of contraception. She pointed out that just because her church is for/against something, doesn't mean she is too. She pointed out that people have their own beliefs and don't just blindly follow the word of the church to which they attend. - This really made me think long and hard about my own predispositions. Not ALL Catholics are against gay rights, not ALL Christians would commit genocide (Ref: Hitler was a Christian), not ALL Muslims would kill thousands of people, and hate western society, not ALL Atheists (And yes, Atheism is somewhat ironically classed as a religion) would see the undoing of every other religion. There is personal choice in all religions. That is why I will not purposefully work to destroy someone's faith.
I have so much to say on the matter, so much to comment on, so many quotes to post and so many opinions to voice, but if I'm being completely honest, I don't know how to structure it, where to start and where to end. So what I want to do is post this as a kind of introduction. I want to get people asking for my opinion and ask me questions. I want to write another blog regarding this and try and express myself openly and honestly.
So please, post any questions you have for me here, and when I get enough, I'll post a new blog.
This is something I'm really interested in talking about, as I want to learn a lot as well as express myself too. So please, post something?
Thanks for reading.
Friday, 19 August 2011
The Dating Game
Last night, I was at a Lostprophets gig. For those of you who know me, you'll know that the only women I would want a relationship with, are people who like similar music to me (It sounds stupid, but think about it; most people get on with each other based on the music they like. It sounds stupid, but I know that all of my closest friends have similar tastes in music to me, bar perhaps 2, or 3. But I don't want to date them). This may seem shallow, or whatever, but it's true. Women at gigs I go to tend to dress in the styles I like, have similar senses of humour to me and also I have something to talk to them about. Anyway, being the Foul Bachelor Frog that I am, I tend to go to these gigs with my mind open to every woman I see, engaging each one in creepy eye contact and desperate attempts at conversation. As a general rule, my nights going to gigs and/or metal bars ends in a low emotional state for me. I never find the person I'm constantly looking for, and as a result, I get depressed and bring down every elses mood, or do something angsty and selfish. And I always reflect on a few things from that night, with a horrible feeling in my stomach, of shame or regret (There was this one time I was at the Phoenix in Coventry, and there was this fucking 8 standing there alone, as her friend (also female) had just gone to the toilet. So this stunner was standing there, looking bored as fuck, sipping her drink slowly and shit. I stood alone of the other side of the room, thinking of going to talk to her, (I wasn't staring and she didn't notice me btw, just so it doesn't sound too creepy.) After 10 minutes, I got the courage to go talk to her, and on my way over, she walks off. Fuck that.
Anyway, last night at the gig, I had nothing like that. At all. And the thing is, something happened which was worse. But I can look at it and laugh now. You know why? Because I've stopped caring. That's the key to happiness; stop caring. Honestly. That shit should be posted on everything everywhere. It should be our national, nay, our global saying "Stop Caring". You know why? Because the more you care, the less happy you are. And what is life without happiness?
So I bet you wanna know what happened? It's not really that interesting... Fine. I'll tell you: It was about midnight, I was coming down the stairs, and I got halfway down. Luke comes out at the top and shouts something to me (I forget what).
Enter really hot girl: "Excuse me"
Me: "Oh, sorry" *Gets out of way*
*Girl walks past*
Luke: "She wanted you"
Me: *Sarcastically* "Yeah, every girl who ever looks at me wants me."
Girl: *From bottom of stairs* "Wow..."
Me: *To Luke* "She just said "Wow" and looked *REALLY* pissed off"
Girl: "Yeah, because you're a dick!"
*End*
Retrospectively, I should have informed her that she was a pussy and that we should fuck. Oh well... But the thing is, a few months back, that would have *REALLY* gotten to me, like, eaten away at me until I got depressed and had a 12 hour listening session to "The Black Parade" on repeat. But now? It's funny. And I genuinely don't care.
Anyway, prelude over. Let's move onto what this blog is actually about!
So, what is the "Dating Game"? That's easy. It's the ability to pick up women with ease, and a high success rate. People who "play the game" often win, because they know the rules, stick to them and they work.
You know what I say? Fuck the game. I mean, seriously. Fuck the game. (I just lost, also) The game is for those popular, charming, charismatic guys at high school who finished high school with more sexual partners than correct exam questions. The guys with six packs, an extensive internal database of football trivia and BTECS in Mechanics, Plumbing or Building/Construction.
Here's the deal: I'm bitter. I've been single for over two years, I'm alone and I'm fucking bitter about it. I mean, I LOVE my friends, they're amazing. I wouldn't change them. But my friends aren't... well, I can't confide 100% in my friends, I don't have that ONE person to share my life with. To tell everything to, to get excited about seeing, to miss, to love. To hold. All that shit. And you know why I'm bitter? I'll tell you for why:
I am a nice guy, I'm funny, social, romantic... fuck this. I'm not going to become an arrogant prick. I'm not. I just HATE, that I can't "play the game". Not that I'd want to of course, I mean there's very few women who go from man to man to man that I'd actually want a relationship with. But I can't "pick up" women. The problem is the who texting thing, I think. If I like a girl, I'll fucking text her. I'm not ashamed. I'm not going to leave it an hour to not seem desperate. I'm NOT fucking desperate. I just want to find someone who is willing to talk back.
People seem to believe in a set of rules laid out by society, and if the person they're talking to doesn't play be these rules, fuck them. "I can't keep texting him, he's needy". I'm not needy, I just LIKE talking to you, so I'd like to talk to you more. Don't just stop replying because I'm "coming on too strong". I'm NOT coming on too strong, I just LIKE TALKING TO YOU! YOU'RE INTERESTING! For fuck sake women of Earth, take it as a compliment, talk back. Because you know what? That guy who leaves it a few hours before replying, making you want more? Chances are he won't be around in a months time. I will (unless of course when I get to know you, you're not who I thought you were, if that makes sense?) .
I don't know. I'm contradicting myself all over the place and making statements with such gaping logical flaws that even a downs syndrome would spot. I just... God damn it, I wish I could let women realise that I am WORTH getting to know!
What is it about playing this fucking game that works? What am I missing? Why can't I just make women realise who I am without coming across as needy, stalkerish and creepy? I want to be myself. Let me be my self and not have to abide by this painful rules. But instead I need to wait to send a fucking text, not say things like "You're beautiful when you smile like that" or ask for hugs every now and then?
Women of planet earth: I invite you to talk to me, get to fucking know me. Realise that I'm not creepy, I'm not going to rape you, I'm not going to stalk you and I'm not going to cling to you like one of those face-huggers from Alien. I simply think you're interesting and I want to get to know you, and I invite you to get to know me too. For the love of God, don't try to "read between the lines" and stop over-analysing my every word to make things seem more than they are.
And this doesn't just go for me, this goes for every shy guy who starts talking to you, every nerd that doesn't mention sex all the time. If we treat you like a human being and not an object, that doesn't mean we don't want to have sex with you, it just means that it's not out number one priority when it comes to you. I'd happily have a relationship without sex so long as I could have someone to share my life with who cared about me as much as I cared about them. Sex is just a bonus. A magnificent, amazing and fantastic bonus. (Note: I've actually asked a girl on a date before, she said she didn't think of me that way. We're still friends now, and she has a boyfriend who she's happy with and I'm happy she's happy, she deserves it. But a few months ago I asked why she didn't think of me that way, after ages of me thinking it was my physical appearance, she told me it was because I didn't ever mention anything sexual, I was too nice. Talking about movies, gigs, games... shit like that. How weird is that? I fucked up because I was trying NOT to fuck up).
So, there you have it. From here on in, I don't give a fuck about my appearance, I don't believe my weight, my acne or my boring hairstyle has anything to do with anything anymore. It's down to me not knowing how to flirt. And you know what? Fuck that. Audioslave sang "And to be yourself, is all that you can do" - These are words of truth, and I live by them. What you see is what you get, sure. But get to know me, and you'll get to know one of the most genuine, caring, loyal and kind people you'll ever know. I don't keep secrets and I don't hold grudges.
Come at me.
Anyway, last night at the gig, I had nothing like that. At all. And the thing is, something happened which was worse. But I can look at it and laugh now. You know why? Because I've stopped caring. That's the key to happiness; stop caring. Honestly. That shit should be posted on everything everywhere. It should be our national, nay, our global saying "Stop Caring". You know why? Because the more you care, the less happy you are. And what is life without happiness?
So I bet you wanna know what happened? It's not really that interesting... Fine. I'll tell you: It was about midnight, I was coming down the stairs, and I got halfway down. Luke comes out at the top and shouts something to me (I forget what).
Enter really hot girl: "Excuse me"
Me: "Oh, sorry" *Gets out of way*
*Girl walks past*
Luke: "She wanted you"
Me: *Sarcastically* "Yeah, every girl who ever looks at me wants me."
Girl: *From bottom of stairs* "Wow..."
Me: *To Luke* "She just said "Wow" and looked *REALLY* pissed off"
Girl: "Yeah, because you're a dick!"
*End*
Retrospectively, I should have informed her that she was a pussy and that we should fuck. Oh well... But the thing is, a few months back, that would have *REALLY* gotten to me, like, eaten away at me until I got depressed and had a 12 hour listening session to "The Black Parade" on repeat. But now? It's funny. And I genuinely don't care.
Anyway, prelude over. Let's move onto what this blog is actually about!
So, what is the "Dating Game"? That's easy. It's the ability to pick up women with ease, and a high success rate. People who "play the game" often win, because they know the rules, stick to them and they work.
You know what I say? Fuck the game. I mean, seriously. Fuck the game. (I just lost, also) The game is for those popular, charming, charismatic guys at high school who finished high school with more sexual partners than correct exam questions. The guys with six packs, an extensive internal database of football trivia and BTECS in Mechanics, Plumbing or Building/Construction.
Here's the deal: I'm bitter. I've been single for over two years, I'm alone and I'm fucking bitter about it. I mean, I LOVE my friends, they're amazing. I wouldn't change them. But my friends aren't... well, I can't confide 100% in my friends, I don't have that ONE person to share my life with. To tell everything to, to get excited about seeing, to miss, to love. To hold. All that shit. And you know why I'm bitter? I'll tell you for why:
I am a nice guy, I'm funny, social, romantic... fuck this. I'm not going to become an arrogant prick. I'm not. I just HATE, that I can't "play the game". Not that I'd want to of course, I mean there's very few women who go from man to man to man that I'd actually want a relationship with. But I can't "pick up" women. The problem is the who texting thing, I think. If I like a girl, I'll fucking text her. I'm not ashamed. I'm not going to leave it an hour to not seem desperate. I'm NOT fucking desperate. I just want to find someone who is willing to talk back.
People seem to believe in a set of rules laid out by society, and if the person they're talking to doesn't play be these rules, fuck them. "I can't keep texting him, he's needy". I'm not needy, I just LIKE talking to you, so I'd like to talk to you more. Don't just stop replying because I'm "coming on too strong". I'm NOT coming on too strong, I just LIKE TALKING TO YOU! YOU'RE INTERESTING! For fuck sake women of Earth, take it as a compliment, talk back. Because you know what? That guy who leaves it a few hours before replying, making you want more? Chances are he won't be around in a months time. I will (unless of course when I get to know you, you're not who I thought you were, if that makes sense?) .
I don't know. I'm contradicting myself all over the place and making statements with such gaping logical flaws that even a downs syndrome would spot. I just... God damn it, I wish I could let women realise that I am WORTH getting to know!
What is it about playing this fucking game that works? What am I missing? Why can't I just make women realise who I am without coming across as needy, stalkerish and creepy? I want to be myself. Let me be my self and not have to abide by this painful rules. But instead I need to wait to send a fucking text, not say things like "You're beautiful when you smile like that" or ask for hugs every now and then?
Women of planet earth: I invite you to talk to me, get to fucking know me. Realise that I'm not creepy, I'm not going to rape you, I'm not going to stalk you and I'm not going to cling to you like one of those face-huggers from Alien. I simply think you're interesting and I want to get to know you, and I invite you to get to know me too. For the love of God, don't try to "read between the lines" and stop over-analysing my every word to make things seem more than they are.
And this doesn't just go for me, this goes for every shy guy who starts talking to you, every nerd that doesn't mention sex all the time. If we treat you like a human being and not an object, that doesn't mean we don't want to have sex with you, it just means that it's not out number one priority when it comes to you. I'd happily have a relationship without sex so long as I could have someone to share my life with who cared about me as much as I cared about them. Sex is just a bonus. A magnificent, amazing and fantastic bonus. (Note: I've actually asked a girl on a date before, she said she didn't think of me that way. We're still friends now, and she has a boyfriend who she's happy with and I'm happy she's happy, she deserves it. But a few months ago I asked why she didn't think of me that way, after ages of me thinking it was my physical appearance, she told me it was because I didn't ever mention anything sexual, I was too nice. Talking about movies, gigs, games... shit like that. How weird is that? I fucked up because I was trying NOT to fuck up).
So, there you have it. From here on in, I don't give a fuck about my appearance, I don't believe my weight, my acne or my boring hairstyle has anything to do with anything anymore. It's down to me not knowing how to flirt. And you know what? Fuck that. Audioslave sang "And to be yourself, is all that you can do" - These are words of truth, and I live by them. What you see is what you get, sure. But get to know me, and you'll get to know one of the most genuine, caring, loyal and kind people you'll ever know. I don't keep secrets and I don't hold grudges.
Come at me.
Friday, 5 August 2011
My Minecraft Server!
Okay, so I've just moved my epic Minecraft map to a new Server, and I'm changing the way that people pay for the server now.
It's actually really simple:
Click this button:
Yeah... see? Easy.
What does it cost? £3 a month.
What you get:
Unlimited access to the Minecraft server.
Access to the Facebook group where you can share pictures, talk about the server and work on projects
Tom Stanley for one night.
Anyway, when you pay, you'll be directed to the Facebook group for the server. Simply ask to join, I'll let you in and get your Minecraft name off you. When you give me that, you go on the whitelist.
Simple. <3
It's actually really simple:
Click this button:
Yeah... see? Easy.
What does it cost? £3 a month.
What you get:
Unlimited access to the Minecraft server.
Access to the Facebook group where you can share pictures, talk about the server and work on projects
Tom Stanley for one night.
Anyway, when you pay, you'll be directed to the Facebook group for the server. Simply ask to join, I'll let you in and get your Minecraft name off you. When you give me that, you go on the whitelist.
Simple. <3
Sunday, 31 July 2011
The General Public.
Okay, I'm not even going to beat around the bush. I'm just going to throw it out there: I absolutely detest the general public with every single fibre of my being. And as far as I can tell, most people do. I've got to say though, I don't want people to think I'm missing the HUGE amount of irony in this statement. As overall, I'm a member of the "general public"; we all are. But I'm talking about people who aren't me. Yeah, I'm going there.
I mean, no, I don't hate everyone that isn't exactly like me, or that doesn't like the same things as me. If we were all the same, life would be boring as fuck, and interesting as fuck things like this blog would never be written. But look at the general public, just look at them... Doesn't it make you physically sick?
For starters, who the fuck is "Jack Wills" and why is his name on 80% of the general public's t-shirts at the moment? It's the same with Hollister. These fucking T-shirts seem to be all people wear! To me, it just looks like people dressing up as sheep and following the crowd of what is accepted by the general public. I detest fashion. Oscar Wilde once said "Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every six months", and is that not the truth? I don't think there's any way of altering that quote to make it more accurate than it already is. I mean, I don't dress unfashionably (if that's a word; if it's not, it is now). I wear Jeans and black band t-shirts / dark joke t-shirts. But let's face it; I'm not exactly Gok-Wan. People who obsess over this Jack Wills douche and Hollister shite, are just wasting their money on stupidly-priced clothes for no reason, other than to look more like that other idiot that wasted their money. Fuck fashion.
Another thing abut the general public, is this. Go out on a Friday night. I fucking DARE you. go on... go to the pub. Count the smutty women, and the douche-bag men lava'd up in Lynx Africa, all out on the pull. I was talking to my friend about them last night, and we're convinced that some of these men are genuinely mentally handicapped, whilst the majority of them are just borderline retarded. Looking around on a night out makes me ashamed to call myself human. I was even approached last night by one of these sub-human oafs (the male variety), who was engaging in communication with me in a feeble attempt to procure some "powder". Were he less muscular, more intelligent and less intoxicated, I might have made some kind of witty remark or joke. My senses of course kicked in, and motioned me to politely tell the man I didn't know, take a sip of my beer and light another cigarrette. Moronic member of the general public: 1, Spudguy: 0.
Now, we've affirmed that I am in no way a fashionable being, nor am I unfashionable. But let's talk about someone we all hate: Hipsters. These people are just another way to conform to a fashion. I only mention hipsters because my rambling of how much I hate "the mainstream" can imply that I share some kind of similarities in the mindset of a hipster. This is not the case: I just really hate everyone. There's a couple of styles I *DO* like, but that's my personal taste, and these genres are not better than anyone else by raw fact (but in my personal opinion, I find them to be nicer people in general, and I would rather talk to them than the Jack Wills guy sitting across the room). But Metalheads, Goths & Punks all have the best dress sense (in my opinion, again). I mean, they don't ALL wear the same T-shirts, have the same hair-styles or dress to impress. They wear things that they like, and that's all that matters. The mainstream public has a lot to learn from this particular demographic.
And that, I will stress: DON'T GIVE A FUCK WHAT PEOPLE THINK. Wear what YOU like the look of, not what your Mum, your boyfriend, your girlfriend or your dog likes. (Okay, maybe listen to the dog) You are your own person. Treat yourself as such.
Also, I've blogged (unsucessfully) about this before: But my God, I hate mainstream chart music bullshit. "OOOH, RADIO 1 ARE PLAYING THIS SONG LET'S ALL BUY IT AND BE THE SAME! EVEN THOUGH IT SOUNDS LIKE THAT SONG I BOUGHT THE OTHER DAY BUT WITH DIFFERENT WORDS!!!". Fuck off. Chart music is NOT music, but factory line drugs to numb the minds of the masses and keep them happy. Why do you think chart music is all about relationships or minor shit, never about politics or religion? Hell, Slipknot may sound like mindless rage to someone who doesn't know them, but listen to the words in some of the songs, powerful shit. Same with System of a Down, Rage Against the Machine, Rise Against. You know what? I'm going to stop there. But before I do, I want you to know: it's fine to listen to mainstream music, as long as you KNOW it's just there to numb your mind out a little.
I'm going to the cinema now to see Captain America. I'm going to post this as an incomplete blog and finish it later tonight. If you have any questions, tweet me or FB me whilst I'm out and I'll answer them in this blog. Ask me for my opinions on shit or something. Hell, tell me stories about the general public and why you hate them! I'll post it. :3
Back soon.
I mean, no, I don't hate everyone that isn't exactly like me, or that doesn't like the same things as me. If we were all the same, life would be boring as fuck, and interesting as fuck things like this blog would never be written. But look at the general public, just look at them... Doesn't it make you physically sick?
For starters, who the fuck is "Jack Wills" and why is his name on 80% of the general public's t-shirts at the moment? It's the same with Hollister. These fucking T-shirts seem to be all people wear! To me, it just looks like people dressing up as sheep and following the crowd of what is accepted by the general public. I detest fashion. Oscar Wilde once said "Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every six months", and is that not the truth? I don't think there's any way of altering that quote to make it more accurate than it already is. I mean, I don't dress unfashionably (if that's a word; if it's not, it is now). I wear Jeans and black band t-shirts / dark joke t-shirts. But let's face it; I'm not exactly Gok-Wan. People who obsess over this Jack Wills douche and Hollister shite, are just wasting their money on stupidly-priced clothes for no reason, other than to look more like that other idiot that wasted their money. Fuck fashion.
Another thing abut the general public, is this. Go out on a Friday night. I fucking DARE you. go on... go to the pub. Count the smutty women, and the douche-bag men lava'd up in Lynx Africa, all out on the pull. I was talking to my friend about them last night, and we're convinced that some of these men are genuinely mentally handicapped, whilst the majority of them are just borderline retarded. Looking around on a night out makes me ashamed to call myself human. I was even approached last night by one of these sub-human oafs (the male variety), who was engaging in communication with me in a feeble attempt to procure some "powder". Were he less muscular, more intelligent and less intoxicated, I might have made some kind of witty remark or joke. My senses of course kicked in, and motioned me to politely tell the man I didn't know, take a sip of my beer and light another cigarrette. Moronic member of the general public: 1, Spudguy: 0.
Now, we've affirmed that I am in no way a fashionable being, nor am I unfashionable. But let's talk about someone we all hate: Hipsters. These people are just another way to conform to a fashion. I only mention hipsters because my rambling of how much I hate "the mainstream" can imply that I share some kind of similarities in the mindset of a hipster. This is not the case: I just really hate everyone. There's a couple of styles I *DO* like, but that's my personal taste, and these genres are not better than anyone else by raw fact (but in my personal opinion, I find them to be nicer people in general, and I would rather talk to them than the Jack Wills guy sitting across the room). But Metalheads, Goths & Punks all have the best dress sense (in my opinion, again). I mean, they don't ALL wear the same T-shirts, have the same hair-styles or dress to impress. They wear things that they like, and that's all that matters. The mainstream public has a lot to learn from this particular demographic.
And that, I will stress: DON'T GIVE A FUCK WHAT PEOPLE THINK. Wear what YOU like the look of, not what your Mum, your boyfriend, your girlfriend or your dog likes. (Okay, maybe listen to the dog) You are your own person. Treat yourself as such.
Also, I've blogged (unsucessfully) about this before: But my God, I hate mainstream chart music bullshit. "OOOH, RADIO 1 ARE PLAYING THIS SONG LET'S ALL BUY IT AND BE THE SAME! EVEN THOUGH IT SOUNDS LIKE THAT SONG I BOUGHT THE OTHER DAY BUT WITH DIFFERENT WORDS!!!". Fuck off. Chart music is NOT music, but factory line drugs to numb the minds of the masses and keep them happy. Why do you think chart music is all about relationships or minor shit, never about politics or religion? Hell, Slipknot may sound like mindless rage to someone who doesn't know them, but listen to the words in some of the songs, powerful shit. Same with System of a Down, Rage Against the Machine, Rise Against. You know what? I'm going to stop there. But before I do, I want you to know: it's fine to listen to mainstream music, as long as you KNOW it's just there to numb your mind out a little.
I'm going to the cinema now to see Captain America. I'm going to post this as an incomplete blog and finish it later tonight. If you have any questions, tweet me or FB me whilst I'm out and I'll answer them in this blog. Ask me for my opinions on shit or something. Hell, tell me stories about the general public and why you hate them! I'll post it. :3
Back soon.
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